Blogs From the Past...“There were some memories, though, that never faded.”

I found old blogs that I had wrote on my old Myspace..When reading them memories were brought back to mind ..“The worst part of holding the memories  is not the pain. It's the loneliness of it. Memories need to be shared.”― Lois Lowry,The Giver.       'So I Am Sharing...."

TIRED

current mood:sleepy

IT'S LATE AND I'M TIRED BUT HAD A GREAT DAY..SPENT THE DAY WITH MY MOM AND DAD...HAD A BIG FISH FRY..LIFE SEEM'S TO LOOK A LITTLE BETTER..NEED REST...WILL WRITE MORE LATER... LOVE MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS SO MUCH.... Jul 27, 2007

GOING BACK TO MISSISSIPPI

Current mood:busy

WE ARE GOING TO BE SO BUSY THE NEXT COUPLE OF DAY'S.MY FAMILY AND I ARE GOING BACK TO MISSISSIPPI TO HELP WORK AND GET A LITTLE VACATION TIME IN....I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE OUR GOOD FRIENDS RICK AND NANCY....WE HAVE BEEN HELPING THEM TO REBUILD THEIR HOUSE..AND HAVE BECAME VERY CLOSE FRIENDS..WE HAVE SO MUCH TO DO TO GET READY TO GO DOWN...FOR AN UP DATE ON MY MOM.. SHE HAD A TREATMENT FOR PAIN HOPE THIS WILL WORK IF IT DOES SHE SHOULD FEEL A LITTLE BETTER AND WILL BE ABLE TO DO A LITTLE MORE...KEEP US IN YOUR PRAYERS AS WE TRAVEL AND KEEP MY MOM IN YOUR PRAYERS DAILY.....I SEE A RAY OF SUNSHINE.............Aug 2, 2007

THEY SAY THEY DON'T

Current mood:angry

THEY SAY THEY DON'T HAVE A CURE FOR THIS THING WE CALL CANCER..WE ALL KNOW BETTER..WE HAVE MORE KNOWLEDGE NOW THAN WE DID IN THE MIDDLE AGES WHEN THE BLACK DEATH ,THE BUBONIC PLAGUE KILLED MILLIONS OF PEOPLE..THIS DEADLY DISEASE THAT SPREAD RAPIDLY WAS CAUSED BY FLEAS AND RATS....SO WHY  WITH ALL THE KNOWLEDGE WE HAVE TODAY IS IT THAT WE CAN'T  FIND A CURE. DOES IT MAKE US DUMBER??..YOU TELL ME, LOOK AT ALL THE MONEY THAT WOULD BE LOST IF WE HAD  A CURE..THEY SPEND MORE TIME ON FINDING WAYS TO TREAT THIS DISEASE THAN A CURE..WHO DO WE BLAME FOR THIS...WAKE UP AMERICA..I GUESS WHEN YOU HAVE A LOVE ONE WHO SUFFER'S FROM THIS THING CALLED CANCER AND SEE THEIR LIFE SLOWLY TAKEN AWAY YOU HAVE A RIGHT TO GET MAD AS HECK(????)... Aug 2, 2007

ON OUR WAY

Current mood:guilty

WE ARE LEAVING TO GO ON OUR TRIP.I HAVE SUCH MIXED FEELING'S I'M LEAVING MY FAMILY AND LEAVING MY MOM WHO IS IN THE HOSPITAL..BLESS HER HEART SHE TOLD US TO KEEP OUR PLANS AND GO AHEAD WITH OUR TRIP BUT I HATE TO LEAVE KNOWING SHE IS SO SICK..DO NOT KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER SHE CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THIS THING WE CALL CANCER .WE DID NOT GET A GOOD REPORT TODAY..I KNOW GOD HAS A PLAN.I'LL JUST HOLD ON TIGHTER TO A HAND THAT IS STRONGER HOLD ON TO OUR HEAVENLY FATHER..TO ALL OUR FRIENDS KEEP US IN YOUR PRAYER'S WHILE WE ARE GONE..WE ARE EXCITED TO HELP OUR FRIENDS IN MISSISSIPPI AND SPEND A LITTLE OVER DUE FAMILY TIME..BUT STILL OUR HEART'S ARE HEAVY IN LEAVING..DANA AND DAVID I LOVE YOU GUY'S SO MUCH... LIFE IS SO VERY  VERY  SHORT CHERISH IT......LOVE YOU GUY'S

Aug 14, 2007

WE ARE HOME

Current mood:happy

TO EVERYONE WHO NEW WE WERE GONE,WELL WE ARE BACK . GOT IN SAT.NIGHT AROUND 11:00p.m.WE HAD A GREAT TRIP.WORKED HARD AND PLAYED HARD..THE BEACH AS ALWAYS WAS BEAUTIFUL..VERY HOT THOUGH.IT WAS SO GOOD TO SPEND TIME WITH OUR FRIENDS.THEY SEEM TO BE DOING GOOD JUST WANTING TO GET INTO THEIR HOUSE..I KNOW THEY CAN'T WAIT  AFTER BEING IN A FEMA CAMPER FOR TWO YEARS...WE LOVE YOU GUY'S.MISSED HOME BUT HATED TO COME BACK AND FACE ALL THAT I HAVE TO FACE WITH MY MOM.SHE SEEM'S TO BE DOING SOMEWHAT BETTER..WE HAD A GOOD VISIT SUN. IT'S SO SAD AND HURT'S SO BAD TO SEE SOME ONE YOU LOVE DEARLY SO SICK..JUST KEEP HER AND ALL MY FAMILY IN YOUR PRAYER'S..

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    WELL WE ARE BACK AT THE HOSPITAL.MY MOM IS FIGHTING SO HARD TO STAY ALIVE..I LOVE HER SO MUCH.I KNOW THAT SHE KNOW'S THAT.SHE TELL'S ME THAT WITH A SOFT WHISPER OR JUST WITH THE MOVE OF THE MOUTH..AS LONG AS THERE IS BREATH THERE IS LIFE.SO MOM KEEP ON BREATHING I'M NOT READY TO LET YOU GO JUST YET..SO KEEP US IN YOUR PRAYER'S AND KNOWING THAT MEANS SO MUCH..                                                          
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    THE END OF LIFE AS WE KNOW ITAug 30, 2007

    MY MOM PASSED AWAY THIS MORNING.. SHE FOUGHT SO HARD AND WANTED TO BEAT THIS FOR HER FAMILY...I'M SO GLAD SHE HAD FAMILY AND FRIENDS WHO CARED ABOUT HER..I KNOW SHE MUST BE HAVING THE TIME OF HER LIFE AS I'M TYPING THIS(SHE ALWAYS DID  LOVED TRIP'S) AND I KNOW SHE IS WITH FAMILY AND FRIEND'S WHO HAVE GONE ON TO HEAVEN AND I KNOW SEEING JESUS WAS WHAT SHE WANTED TO DO MOST OF ALL..SO I GUESS IN A SENSE SHE WILL BE ATTENDING A FAMILY REUNION AND KNOWING WE WILL SOON BE THERE WITH HER..I LOVE YOU MOM !!!YOU LOVED ME CARED FOR ME AND YOU AND DAD GAVE ME THE BEST OF LIFE.I HOPE TO DO THE SAME FOR MY CHILDREN..AND THANK YOU TO FAMILY AND FRIENDS WHO WILL HELP US GET THROUGH THIS IT MEANS SO MUCH..PLEASE KEEP US IN YOUR PRAYER'S FOR WE HAVE A LONG ROAD AHEAD....MOM YOU FINALLY GOT TO SEE THOSE ANGLES... 
    
    
    
    

    THANK-YOU

    Current mood:touched
    I WOULD LIKE TO THANK EVERYONE WHO KEPT US IN THEIR PRAYERS AND WHO MADE CALL'S AND SENT CARD'S..YOU ALL HAVE BEEN SO KIND.AND IT MEANT ALOT TO KNOW THAT YOU ALL CARED DURING THE PASSING OF MY MOM..I MISS HER SO MUCH.I STILL WANT TO PICK UP THE PHONE AND GIVE HER A CALL ABOUT THING'S THAT HAVE GONE ON THIS WEEK.(TO TELL HER TRACY GOT HER VOLLEYBALL OUTFIT )OR HOW CHURCH WENT SUNDAY OR JUST TO FILL HER IN ON DAILY ACTIVITIES.PLEASE KEEP US IN YOUR PRAYERS..THEY SAY TIME WILL HEAL..MY LOVE TO YOU ALL
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    May 14, 2008

    MOM

     WELL I MADE IT THROUGH MY FIRST MOTHERS DAY WITHOUT A MOM..IT WAS HARD BUT THANKS TO MY WONDERFUL FAMILY AND FRIENDS THEY BROUGHT JOY FOR THE DAY THAT WOULD HAVE OTHER WISE BEEN VERY SAD...I KNOW MY MOM IS HAVING THE TIME OF HER LIFE,JUST THINK OF ALL THE WONDERFUL MOMS IN THE BIBLE WHO HAVE GONE ON TO HEAVEN THAT SHE SPENT MOTHERS DAY WITH..I CAN ONLY IMAGINE...........I LOVE YOU ALL 
    
    
    
    
    
    “Sharing tales of those we've lost is how we keep from really losing them.” 
    ― Mitch Albom, For One More Day

My Love for the Rain....

O.k since it is raining ,what better subject to blog.about yep, the rain and my love for it.There are some things that I love about the rain.I have always loved the rain and how it makes me feel . I love the smell of it.I love the way you can smell it in the air even before it's arrival.I love after a good rain the crispness that it brings to the air and how much brighter the trees and grass seem to be..I love the sound of it tat,tat on the roof or the sound of it falling through the trees or how it sounds when your car drives through it. I love the sound it makes when you are driving in it and just for a brief second it stops when you go under a bridge.I love the fact of holding an umbrella and running to get from one place to another and trying not to get wet but no matter how hard you try it happens..lol..and the laughing as you stomp through the little puddles that it has made.And I find it a little bit romantic to share an umbrella with the one you love.  But most of all I love it's calmness that it brings into my home.I love being trapped indoors because of it.I love the warmth it brings and the desire to crawl back in the bed and snuggle.The warmth of a soft glow from a lamp with the soothing sounds of jazz playing with the rain in the background or the fact that it makes me want a cup of coffee and I am not even a big fan of the stuff, lol. I love the desire it brings to want to cook something on the stove most of the day because of it's cool dampness.For me I think the rain is God's way of saying slow down and enjoy some of the simple things I give you in life and the rain is one of them..Some people walk in the rain,others just get wet.Rain showers my spirit, and waters my soul. ~ Emily Logan Decens

Shower my Spirit

A little bit of romance.. 

THE CITY BOX....

Growing up as a kid we had what I called a city mailbox that made it's home on the corner of our street for years during  the 1960's and 1970's. That mailbox no longer stands proudly on that corner like all things simple, mailboxes have vanished into the unknown,a thing in the past it marked the era of a simpler time.  It held the world's most important and earliest form of communication...the letter.Without the invention of the mailboxes our civilization would have been different.Growing up as a kid I found this box that sat on the corner fascinating and some what of a mystery.I would sit on the front porch and watch people of all ages drop their mail in this box wondering what news the letter was bringing to the recipient,good news, dreaded news and where was it's destination and how long would it take to make the trip.Often times I would feel the need to pull back the door/slot to the mail box and yell inside "lol" never getting a reply.."HELLO IS ANYONE IN THERE." I am not sure what I would have done if I had gotten a answer..And for some reason I felt the  need to give it a good shake knowing I could never shake it off it's concert foundation.And it goes without saying every once in a while I would have the need to drop little things in there just because I was a kid.. I became so excited and loved when my mom would give the  mail to me that actually was to be mailed some 30 steps from our front door.She entrusted me with this very important task.And I took it very seriously.I remember dropping it in shutting the little door and waiting a few seconds and opening it back up just looking down as far as I could  to  make sure it had dropped in, way down in the belly of that box."Nothing echoes like an empty mail box..." Charles M. Schultz.. Who would think that such a simple thing as a mail box would be part of your childhood memory.Sometimes it's just one of those things you feel the need to look back on and smile at all of those childish,silly moments that just so happen to define who you are and the memory of a more simple life that for one second you would give anything to relive...TRUE LOVE IS HOME GROWN1!

Just wondering who received this letter?? 

Yep!!! One of those Days..........

How did I know today was going to be one of those days?Emotions running high...My heart feels heavy,today's been a grumpy day it's been short tempered, grumbly, and easily frustrated.The sort of day that makes you wish for a 'restart' button...You know the ones? Where you are kind of just in a funk. And you just don’t feel right in your own skin.Looking at me wrong will make me cry. Hugging me to make it better will make me cry.
I know I will feel better tomorrow, at least I hope I do.I think I am just having one of those days where the uncertainty you feel about things takes over and doesn’t let the good stuff shine on through.Yep,that is how I feel today.Thank-You God for good friends and family who put up with me..Some days should come with a warning label.....So, I think I am going to put on a Happy face shake these feelings off and start over as though it were a brand new day...

Love the making of a Memory

My Beautiful MoM...

My mom and I

Awesome Christian Lady

On my wedding day..

My love will never die...

As most of you know today will be five years since the passing of my mom...I miss her every single day..The love I have for her will never die..She will live in my heart for as long as I live..This love I now share for her is called a memory..I always thought I would have more time.I thought I would have more phone conversations that took place every morning and ended in I love Yous..More Thanksgiving's,more Christmases together,more Birthdays just more time to love her here on this earth..My mom was a Awesome lady..No, she was not perfect,but then none of us are but her way of life was spent loving and caring for others..She was always busy helping others and giving was not something she did it was her way of life..She loved and gave her all to my dad and with no doubt  she loved her children, family and friends but most of all you knew where she stood with her relationship with her GOD..She is the one I turned to when I needed a shoulder to cry on.And here lately,that would have been a lot, because of now I'm going to take the month of August out of my calendar year..lol..Not a good month for me..She was the one I would call first to celebrate good news and the one I would call for advice..So you see my mom played a very   important part in my life.Even though she has left to go into the other room..I will take everything she has taught me and pass it down to my children and grandchildren so that her love will never die..because with out love there are no memories..I know that love never dies, that our loved ones are with us always, and that the memory of my mother will live in my heart forever. I also know that life is short and we never know when we’ll have our last opportunity to say the things we want to say, until the moment is gone.So, if you want to say, “I love you”, go say it now. If you need to say, “I’m sorry” or “I forgive you”, go say it now. Go do the things you want to do with those that you love- now. Don’t think that you’re too busy or that you can do it tomorrow, for tomorrow may never come.I love you mom and forever will............Till we meet again.....Your first born" Martha"

SWEET BABY GIRL.....HOMEWARD BOUND..

My Sweet Baby Girl...

“Coming home”…what phrase could sound sweeter?My baby girl is coming home for the week-end... Friday to be exact..I could not be any happier.. .My only fear is that my expectations of how this first vacation/ visit will far exceed the reality. Dreams of long talks, laughs,shopping, just hanging out together will probably end up with her hanging out with her friends, spending hours on her laptop, and sleeping LOT'S of sleeping! Doesn't matter that I will probably see more of her dirty laundry than her. No matter what happens, I am thrilled she will be home My Baby Is Coming Home! I Am So Excited!! She has already put in a order for a Chicken casserole. She is coming home for her first real visit since she headed off to college. I haven't seen her for about two weeks and for some strange reason that seems like an eternity I can't wait to hug her and kiss that sweet face. I am thrilled she will be home and I am counting down the hours.

They have my Heart.............

My little man...

My Little Miss Prissy..

My little Betty Lou....

Hugs and Kisses.....

Walking in papa's shoes... 

I am (in no particular order) a wife, a mom, a mimi and by that I realized I am living on borrowed time... sitting here thinking a word came to mind...RELISH-Relish the Moments and make them count....I relish the moments that I have with my grandchildren. Little moments, Regular moments,Precious moments. The moments when they play together Relishing the fun..Park and Zoo days.. Bedtime Stories and Bedtime Prayers ..Special Talks.. And the Can I fix your hair times??and the countless “I Love You's”.. The Special Hugs and kisses meant only for you ..This little piggy went to the market..Funny face Wide mouth frog..Peek a Boo ..Here's the church and here's the steeple.. Whistling and the non ending desire to be pushed in a swing.. The little hand prints on the glass doors..And those never ending sometimes funny questions and the funny faces they give when you give them sometimes a funny answer....and the very first time they call out your name(mimi)Oh and that will melt your heart...And the crazy nicknames we give them..And most of all just the little things they do for no reason at all..Relishing their childhood. They capture our hearts so quickly and hold on for ever.. I don't know how many more summers we will have of these adventures, so I am trying to savor everyone. We relish moments that become precious memories..I'm grateful for the time I do have. It never feels like enough..but it is. It's enough. What we're given from God is always enough...as long as we make it count..for every moment which passes by should be relished,for they will never return..Therefore I will forever relish the moments and make each one count........."The days are long but the years are short."   ~Mom’s wisdom~They have my HEART forever............